the creatively titled waterloo journal

whoa!

2005-09-04T19:33:19Z

SO i just realized that I still have a livejournal. UMMMM, I like yeah have any friends. Just kidding. I haven't talked to anyone from Glen Ellyn in a while.... it sucks. I have a myspace at Myspace.com u can find me, 17, Waterloo IA and thats probably the best way to contact me. Plus I have a pretty sweet picture of my sister. Anywho, if u really feel lucky you can Email me at Ktj14@cs.com or IM me at sftblchic66. Yay!

I hate my mom

2003-12-11T02:52:30Z

Wow I hate my mom... its official. She pulled me into her room and made me talk to her. I didnt wanna, it hurrt to see her cry and tell me that i wasnt myself. She said i had to get better or she was gonna make me get some "professional help". She said I used to be so strong, and now I burst into tears so easily. I think shes scared that i did get affected by the move. I didnt wanna talk to her, i was so uncomofortable i didnt even wanna hug her. She made me feel worse than I did before, she made me realize that theres more wrong with me than i thought there was. I dont wanna go see s psychiathrist, what are they gonna do? Give me an outsiders perspective, I already get that by talking to you guys.... its so messed up i just wanna go to bed and cry.

UPDATE

2003-12-07T21:39:28Z

God Damn Abby.. well lets see what has happened in the last forever..
1. Our principal was forced to resign by some bastard that wrestled til he was 36.
2. Emily, Katie Hover and LeighAnne got in a car accident, their car flipped in the air and did a barrel roll, and me and Jared were the first ones there cuz we were 2 minutes behind them.. we saw Katie Lying in the backseat and we thought she was dead... good times
3. That happened on a Weds. then that Sunday Jared decided to break up with me cuz hes cool like that. I guess hes under a lot of stress and needed to "take a break from sum stuff" so now were just friends... it sux
4. I started getting nightmares about Andria... its been so long, and something triggered it.... so i stopped sleeping all this week.
5. Christmas with Wartburg was grand, my 1st trip o a dorm room, and there was 2 playboy magazines on the couch, and then yucky pictures on the Screen Saver... i covered Katie Hover's eyes, then the concert was ok, me and Jared talked the whole time, not about anything important, just about how he rapes dogs....
6. I was invited on a SEAL recruitment trip, and we were all going to the mall of america.. it was the one way to get away from it all, and Jared was going, a good way for him to get rid of his stress, but ya the bastard who got our principal to resign, ya HE CANCELLED OUR FUCKING TRIP... FUCK CARLUCCI!
7. Me and a group of 15 kids went to the Board Meeting that night to find out why he cancelled it, plus one of the moms was gonna speak about the principal situation. So we went and Miss Hover was sitting across the room from me. Once they started talking about the Seal trip, Alex, the freshman whose room I TPed, ya he started bawling, and then I started crying, and then Tess, and then Meredith, and then Tess. Alex went over to comfort me, and I comforted him, all in front of these Board members. I think we touched a few of them, but then when Hover saw me crying, she started crying, then I started crying more.. it was a bad cycle. Then two teachers resigned, the Guidance Counseler who helped me through my first days, and my Spanish teacher, Mrs. Boeck.. to top it off, her dad was sick, and he died after the meeting.
8. So no trip, now i had my first Basketball game, I wasnt realy looking forward to it at all, i was way nervous. We beat the team 50-18.. WOO WOO, but I think I'm gonna quit, i'm under way too much stress.
9. THis one kinda fits in the middle somewhere, but I got a note in my locker with a really sweet poem, it started out "Whenever I'm with you, nothing can go wrong, everything is right." Then they had this cute lil poem..
"If kisses were raindrops, I'd send you a shower"
"If hugs were seconds, I'd send you and hour"
"If smiles were waves I'd send you an ocean"
"If love was a sea, I'd send you to me"
It was really sweet, but it wasn't from Jared, so I didnt care. I found out right before Christmas With Wartburg that it was Josh, and he said it was a joke. So on the way home i bitched him out and told him how much of a bastard he was for messing with peoples feelings, especially since he knows how hard the Jared situation is on me... and he pulled me aside after we got back to Columbus, and told me that he really did feel that way, but he didnt wanna say anything because of Jared.Wow, i felt like a bitch, and I feel even worse cuz I dont like him.. that was the sweetest thing in the world, and I dont have feelings for him... it sux ass! So ya life sux, but Miss Hover has been so awesome throughout it all, last night I talked to her until 2:00 in the morning about everything, and i have been for this last week. I wanna come back home, just get away from everything. Considering there isnt gonna be a Columbus for me to go to next year at this rate.. I dont know whats gonna happen, but ppl suck!

hahaha (evil chuckel)

2003-11-25T21:32:00Z

You know who i love the mostest? its abby shes the coolest sexiest person ever! i wish i was her! I mean who doesnt tho shes just way hot to handle you know what else i love? delayed hacker revenge its fun and great, it just makes you feel beautiful inside! and you know who is beautiful inside....ABBY LATEK thats right its a k not an x and she is so beautiful inside and out and i know everyone agrees with kate, the one moved away from the coolest girl alive(that girl is Abby Latek..if u didnt catch on) well i guess ive talked about abby enough but u know i love her and i could talk about her for hours on end, no days, no weeks, no months, no ETERNITY!! shes so perfet!

I wrote it myself.. and gave it to Jared

2003-10-30T22:33:01Z

Trying to find the words isn't easy
Especially when I know what I want to say
My poetry's horrible, but I'll tell you anyway
When I look into your eyesI feel like I'm floating
And when I see your cute lil dimples
Your smile takes my breath away
I don't know how you do it, and you might know till now-
But you got me,
You got me more than anyone ever has before
I feel like I'm in a fairy tale
Your perfect to me
All the times you took me by the hand
and I always found safety in your arms
Sometimes I'm afraid to tell you how I feel
But then I look in your eyes
And it's all OK

katetron @ 2003-10-22T20:43:00

2003-10-23T01:44:10Z

I love Katie Hover! HAPPY NOW KATIE?

katetron @ 2003-10-21T19:32:00

2003-10-22T00:32:55Z

I really do love Hurricane **tear tear**

WoW

2003-10-22T00:31:57Z

Oh ya live journal.. homecoming was fun. Jared broke his finger (not my fault)at work on Sunday. I fell asleep in the band room with hover (the band teacher) and we blamed Tess for not waking us up. She came in there and didnt wake us up because we looked peaceful. So I was 2 hours late home- but it was a high quality nap! Our band teacher was late today and me and LeighAnne made up a theory as to why: she was doin some premarital hanky panky with Ryan Catterton, the hott band teacher from Waverly/Shell Rock. Ya and it all made sense, come to school late and not be stressed out. Then when we asked her where she was she says I was just late, and I couldnt get to the phone cuz I was tied up. I think its because she was literaly tied up. Ya i need a life i know.

katetron @ 2003-10-19T21:13:00

2003-10-20T02:13:42Z

I love Hurricane so much...

katetron @ 2003-10-19T21:12:00

2003-10-20T02:12:21Z

Sorry

2003-10-09T21:50:53Z

So despite popular belief.. i am not coming in this weekend. Sorry y'all but no one can get me from Dubuque to Chicago... I love you all!

I cant take it anymore

2003-10-01T03:34:01Z

darklvr142: u feeling ok
Me: u want my honest answer... or what im gonna tell everyone at school tomorrow
darklvr142: well i guess so
darklvr142: if ur leaving im kicking ur ass
darklvr142: just a warning
darklvr142: :)
Me: im not leaving... i just cant take it anymore
darklvr142: take what
Me: everything
Me: i feel like everyones problems are on my shoulders
darklvr142: how is that
darklvr142: and the fact is u ko there not
darklvr142: kno*
darklvr142: so what are u gunna do
Me: and right now i feel sick to my stomach... im so worried about so many different things, its all swirling aound in my head
Me: theres just so many things i wish i didnt know.. then i wouldnt have to worry about them
darklvr142: i kno what that feels like but the only thing you can do is realize that you can only take care of yourself thats why this is called "your life",
darklvr142: life is the way it is for a reason and everything i guess will work out in the end
Me: ya but im worried that if i ignore some of these things, people are gonna get hurtt and im gonna feel horrible becaus ei could of stopped it and i didnt
darklvr142: its helped me to kinda start talking to God
Me: that about the only thing that is working for me now, is God
Me: thats*
darklvr142: true u have to be a freind butu have to realize that if it deals with someones life the way to be a friends is to get some help, maybe not neccisarily a counsiler maybe someone else but you or no one of our friends can take care of that, you have to be loyal but there still are boundries
darklvr142: for that kind of stuff
darklvr142: but if its not that then you can only take care of yourself
darklvr142: help in some ways but if it gets too overwhelming then take a step back and focus on yourself
Me: i think i just worry to much
darklvr142: i think ur a good person but soemtimes even the good people need a break
Me: but i cant worry about myself
darklvr142: that could be it
Me: thanx
darklvr142: thats the only thing your responsible for worriing about
darklvr142: yourself
darklvr142: but yea my moms telling me i got to get off
darklvr142: so i guess ill c u tomarrow
Me: i dont know, im kinda the person tend to talk to about stuff, and sometimes its really serious, and as much as i thought i could handle it.. im losing it
Me: ok ill cu tomorrow
Me: Thank you so much
darklvr142: well sometimes u should find someone to talk to
darklvr142: then it wouldnt be all on ur shoulders
darklvr142: peace

darklvr aka josh, as much of a buddy as he is, cant help me, im in a long twisted spiral, spinning uncontrollably.

katetron @ 2003-09-29T14:56:00

2003-09-29T20:12:22Z

Homecoming.... WOW. Besides the fact the Jared asked me to go make babies. LOL no, long story, he wasnt serious. But yeah, GOT IN MY FIRST CAR ACCIDENT ON FRIDAY! So me and Jared were following Jessie to go find Elk Run Heights city hall, and there were 3 or 4 cars behind us. We were stopped at an intersection (Hurc and Ab's, the one where we saw the car crash before- freaky) and Jessie inched forward, and so did Jared. There was a semi coming and we just kinda assumed Jessie was gonna go in front of it since it was going soooo slow. So as Jared looked at the semi, he started pulling forward- little problem, Jessie didnt. So his bumper went underneath her car and his car "picked up her car". Jessies car was fine, but Jared had a cracked bumper, or so we thought. After swirving along the road, trying to find his cell phone, jared got a phone call from Chad, he was behind us. Chad starts bitching him out about how he has to pay attention while driving. I felt so bad for Jared, he was really shook up by the whole thing. Then if it wasn't bad enough, after we got to the city hall and danced for Beth's party, we were pulling out of the parking lot, and we hear the horrible screaching sound coming from his car. His bumper was hanging down onto his tire.... thank god it didnt wear down. To put a wonderful end to a wonderful night, the car was all steamed up (not from what your thinking) and he had the defrost on... HOW THE HELL WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THERE WAS A TURN THERE, I COULDN'T SEE ANYTHING. Jared missed hitting a pole by less than a foot- we werent stuck in the ditch, thank god, but it still sucked major ass. But ya homecoming was sooo much fun. Jared and I were slow danicing and we were looking into each others eye, and our foreheads and noses were touching, perfect moment right? Ya, it was until Miss Hover our band teacher came up to us... wow, that was embarassing. Then Jared got stolen by Alice, so I dnaced with Tom, then Brenton grabbed onto my shoulders and Max grabbed onto Tom's shoulders, and before I knew it, there was like 12 kids behind each of us, interlocked like a train. IT WAS HILARIOUS! Then they took a picture for the yearbook.. wow. Then we went to Village Inn, and Beth dared me to sniff sweet n low up my nose, so i did. Before the end of the night, Beth, Jared and me had all each sniffed water, sweet n low, coffee, and sugar. My nose still hurts, but my boogers tasted like sugar, so it was all good. (; I miss you guys so Hard!

katetron @ 2003-09-25T21:20:00

2003-09-26T02:26:52Z

Oh ya, I have a livejournal. Whats been going on... hmmm.. well my voice had just started to get better... and thn we had the powderpuff football game. I don't think i've said fuck so many times before that game. Fuck the freshman, fuck the rules, fuck them all! We kicked ass, i hate cocky freshman... i got my payback. So i played defense, and the 2nd play of the game I intercepted a pass.. and ran for a touchdown! Everyone huddling around me jumping up and down was amazing, i felt like people actually saw me, i wasnt invisible anymore. The rest of the day, i was walking up in the clouds. WE won the game 14-0 <---- haha freshman.. we kicked your asses!!!!
What the hell is with guys? Do they enjoy my pain? Everything was perfect this last week. Maybe I'm over exaggerating, maybe i'm just over analyzing the situation.... I like him TOO much, thats what my problem is. I'm freaking out right now, worrying that he's gonna break up with me, and everything is going great! He's got me, but I don't think he knows it yet.

BUSTED!

2003-09-20T22:35:04Z

Ok, so just when I convinced my parents that bronchitus is a very contagious cold, we had to go to the doctor. The damn doctor was like oh ya u can only get bronchitus through contact (aka swaping spit). Damn Jared, why does he have to have bronchitus too. Hes finally better though, and despite the fact that my parents now dont trust me at all... life is pretty good. I'm still going to homecoming, and my parents really like Jared, so its not a big deal, but I really hate doctors today.

Ya know.....

2003-09-14T05:03:47Z

Jared asked me out on Thursday. September 11th, bad timing but it was great. Today I woke up at 12:00, took a shower, did my chores, and Jared picked me up and we went to Cattle Congress. I love holding hands. I love holding hands on rides. Then we drove around, and around and around. We went to Leigh Anne's and then we went to dinner with her and her mom. Me and Leigh Anne and Jared went back to Jared's house. (After being blocked in and harassed for 20 minutes by Jared's brother's friends) Anywho, at like 10:00 Leigh Anne had to leave, so we drove her home, and went back to his house cuz I didnt have to be home till like 11:30. No one was at Jareds house, his parents were out of town, and his brother and his friends were still out cruisin Uni. so we just "hung out"....... at like 11:30 Jared drove me home. Here I am, safe and sound, just writing to say I love you all and that Katie has a boyfriend!!!!!!

katetron @ 2003-09-07T20:27:00

2003-09-08T01:40:53Z

Todays the 7th right? ya, it must be cuz today was my moms birthday. We celebrated my sisters birthday though. anywho, this weekend was fun. I made Jared a mix CD to say thanks for giving me rides.... it went over well. I guess. Friday night me and Lauren went to Mama Nicks where Jared works and waited for him to finish so he could drive us around, but then he had to go straight home, oh well. But then the next day me and Katie (Hosch) went to Jared's rugby game.... rugby is a violent sport. DAMN it was bad, i saw him get his feet knocked out from under him and fall to the ground hitting his head, but he got right back up and kept playing (later he told me he had whip lash). Then that night me Ashley and Jackie went to the top of Columbus WHILE THERE WAS A DANCE GOIN ON. LOL then someone saw us! we were sitting there.. im holding Jackies hand scared out of my mind and we sa there for almost an hour, jst hoping no one would come up there. Then we finally made a run for it and walked back. When we get back (im spending the night at jackies with ashley) theres a note that says "Katie call home" Our parents had all gotten a hold of each other and were looking for us cuz they had no idea where we were.... long story but it all turned out fine after a big LIE! lol today was a boring party, i got pushed in the pool with my clothes on... fun! Katie band meeting 2morrow... hehehe!

HMM

2003-09-04T03:27:58Z

Not much has happened lately. Band is great, I love LeighAnne, and Jared, and Alicia, and KayDee, and Liz, and I guess Emily. I feel bad cuz no one likes her, but then again she is a lil obsessed with the Bible, and God in general. I'm not dissing God, just saying that obsessive is bad. Yesterday, me, LeighAnne, Liz, Jared and Tess TPed Alex Ulfers Bedroom. He knows me, LeighAnne and Liz were there, but not Jared and Tess. Ulfers is a freshie, whose only purpose is to make the band mad. So after we TPed his room we took the band signs, Miss Hover's podeum, and other stuff and put it on the football field- then we blamed it on him! HEHEHEHEHE, I stole Jared's band sign last week, but today I finally gave it back, and his pen too. As much as I wanted to keep them enshrined in my room... I gave them back. I'm going bckapcking through the Rockies next summer... its gonna be awesome. July 3rd-19th. It counts as a science credit, which is even better. Lets see, what else, Im going to Jared's 1st rugby on Saturday, but I dont wanna go alone... ABBY? If u start walking now I'm sure you could get here in time! I love you all, and as Christy says.... LET YOU ALL BE IN PEACE! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( I just learned that one yesterday)

Another school down

2003-09-01T17:41:34Z

HURRICANE! I got on Columbus' roof!!!! hehehehehehe, and with that i have another battle scar. Party went over well, went to Jackie's house after and partied. Jared is gone, he went camping, sux for him. I need a car, and a liscense, and a job, and a boyfriend. SOMEHOW EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I LIKE JARED.... everyone except for him, i think/hope. DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We were just driving... i SWEAR

2003-08-30T18:06:48Z

So I went to the football game, it was tons of fun! By the end of the game, me and Leigh Anne were switching drums every beat. Jared was hott, like he always is. It was so embarassing though, everytime i would talk/flirt with him all of our friends in the stands would moan, yell, scream etc. Then after we decided we were gonna go to Burger King, Jared was gonna give me a ride, and everyone else left. Me and him helped Ms. Hover clean up and it took an extra 40 minutes. So when me and Jared showed up late, of course everyone thought we were late for other reasons...... Then this bitchy lady yelled at us for being too loud, so we left and chilled in the parking lot for like 10 minutes until the lady yelled at us again and told us to go home and stop loitering. Whatever, so Jared gave me a ride "home" aka we went driving around cuz neiter of us wanted to go home. Then when I finally did go home, my parents were just about to call Jareds cell phone cuz i was 20 minutes late. Im so glad they didnt embarass me anymore than they already have, after all next time there coming to the football game!

OMG OMG!

2003-08-29T20:16:41Z

THANK LORD JESUS! Today was a good day... I went to school, played a good drum, and ate a good lunch. Then after school, I was talking to Sarah and Leigh Anne came up to me and was like "come here, now" Me being me, was like oh shit what did i do. So i go down there, and Alicia's there... and she goes "stand here, dont move" OK sureeeee... so like 10 minutes later I was bitching. I was like Why am I here? my dad is waiting for me... I have to go. So we walk into Mrs Rigdon's room (Alicia's mom's room) and i was just sitting there like what the hell... and someone taps me on the shoulder. I turn around and its Jared, and he goes "I wanted to know,will you go to homecoming with me?" "Hell yes" no actually i just said yes and he gave me a big hug. Well, i guess he likes me, lol i wonder if he knows i like him too? hmmmm... well anyways then i was walking out and all my friends were just standing there looking at me... finally one of the girls asked me if he asked me and i was like uh huh... i said yes. Suddenly all these cheerleaders are huddled around me telling me who proud they are of me. And then Jackie told me that another kid, Matt Parker, was gonna ask me to homecoming, and he was gonna ask me out. I felt really bad cuz I dont like him like that... and hes shorter than me. So i told them that and they were like good, he likes guys anyways. I whispered damn you cheerleaders and walked out to my dad... with the cheerleaders behind me screaming "Jared's hotter anyways!!!!" It was good trying to convince my parents we were just going as friends... so he'll still give me rides home.

MWahahahaha

2003-08-28T01:02:42Z

Linkinmaniac1011: i hate guys
gossumo: word

Emma! WE WON THE WAR!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! This is a great day in history, remember it forever

"I dunno yet"

2003-08-27T21:16:28Z

Jared gave me a ride home today.... mmmmmmmmm, the percussion stuff ran late, and since he had to be at work, he drove 70 trying to get home, me clutching to the door the whole time. i felt bad that he gave me a ride, probably made him late, but he said it was fine. I asked him who he was gonna ask to homecoming and he was like "I dunno yet, all the girls at Columbus are rich and snotty, dont worry your not" I didnt know what to say, thanx? lol i had no idea, newayz... driving around with Jared is fun, I'm gonna laugh when we water ballon his car, hes obsessive like that, hes one of those guys that would probsbly marry a car if he could..... ewwww, he wants to join the Marines.... that would be weird, hes the military type, but I dont wanna see him going off to war somewhere. Hmmm, oh well dont have to worry about it anytime soon, his mom wont sign the waiver and hes not sure if he wants to go or not. We'll see, Band is sweet!! Why didnt anyone tell me this before. I love it, tomorrow were gonna TP the bedroom of this freshie chorus member who tried to steal our band hats. LOL, I miss you guys!!!!!!

In This Diary

2003-08-27T00:06:22Z

Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...

I miss you guys!

Redeeming Myself

2003-08-26T21:05:18Z

So after my embarassing moment of yesterday, I tried to redeem myself by getting a ride home with Jared today after school. I saw him earlier in the day for band and he said he was happy to give me a ride. He had to stay and do tryouts for Drumline so me and Leigh Anne hung out and went into the boys locker room chasing after a dumb ass fresie chorus member who stole a band hat. After that was all said and done.. Jared, Tom, Mickey, Leigh Anne and I all hopped in this tiny 2 door Cavlilier and started driving. God is he a horrible driver. He blew through two stop signs and got lost not twice, but 3 times!!! After he dropped off Mickey and Leigh Anne, Tom made me sit in the backseat, the bastard and I proudly found my way home without getting lost! It was awesome and the whole time we were in the car, he was blasting Good Charlotte (one of my favorite bands). God is he hott... so I got my ride home, with my parents permission so now Jared is gonna be giving me a ride home more often, hopefully!!!!